No Strings Attached

The sunlight streamed into the room. She stirred and opened her eyes. For a second, she couldn’t place where she was. Then she remembered. She looked over to her right, a slight smile on her lips as she remembered the previous night.

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“ Are you sure? ” Those were the first words that he uttered as he entered the hotel room.

She walked up to him, a coy smile on her face. “No. But who cares?”

He smiled back. “Okay.”

She smiled in anticipation and took his hand in hers. He leaned in to kiss her. His lips were firm, gentle, demanding. She sighed deeply, her body molding against his. He moaned a little and lifted her up in his arms. She laughed and then gasped as he pushed her against the wall, his mouth on her neck, her collar-bone, his hands moving down her body.

They kissed passionately. She unzipped his trousers and wriggled out of her dress. She had nothing else on.

She knew he was looking at her. She stole a discreet look, her heart fluttered a little. His eyes…they were so expressionless. She looked at the tell – tale signs of a hard – on and smiled.

“ You look good.” His voice was a little hoarse as he ran his fingers down her arm. He removed his T- shirt and tossed it aside. They kissed again.

“ I love this!” He murmured, as his hands fondled her breasts. He pushed her down on the bed. They both grinned.

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Her alarm bell went off.

Shit shit shit. She hissed and switched it off.

She looked at him. He was still asleep. Good. She could now stare at him to her heart’s content. He was so handsome.

No! It’s over. This is just a booty call! She told herself firmly and then sighed. She turned over and closed her eyes.

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He woke up all of a sudden.

“What the hell!” It was 10 AM. He was late….oh wait. It was his day off. With her.

She was sleeping soundly, a serene smile on her face. He moved closer, and put his arm around her. He felt her stir.

“ Good morning.”

She turned her face around as he gently kissed her.

” Ew my mouth stinks!” she protested.

“ I don’t care.” He kissed her again, and again. God, how he wanted her.

They did it again. Twice.

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“ So….I guess I’ll see you around.”

He was at the taxi stand, shuffling his feet awkwardly.

“ Yep. Till the next time.” She smiled a smile that didn’t reach her eyes.

He looked at her searchingly, but she gave no sign of being emotional. She got into the taxi and waved goodbye.

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She sighed. If it was all about no strings attached, then why did she feel like stopping the cab and running into his arms. He didn’t care anyway.

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He watched her cab drive away.

He suddenly felt a little depressed. But this was how it would be. He knew she didn’t care.

About a kiss

“A kiss may ruin a human life”
― Oscar Wilde

Change

20th October 2012.

She stared at the ceiling. Her alarm bell rang, for the tenth time maybe.

Move, she told herself, but her body refused to. She reached out for her phone and sighed. There were ten missed calls, from work, friends, family. Everyone was concerned. Everyone cared.

But no one understood. No one could.

Get up!

She took a deep breath and sat up in bed. It was time.

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11 AM.

She had taken a bath and eaten a proper breakfast after almost three weeks.

She looked around her house. It was a mess. She hadn’t stepped out since….she squinted as she drew the curtains aside and the sunshine streamed in…since….

You can do this. She told herself firmly.

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2 PM.

She’d cleaned up most of her house. Tired, she sat on the couch.

And then the tears started again. She let them flow. It would be a while before they would stop. It was good, according to Wikipedia to let it all out. Or was it?

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4PM

“Hey Tasha, its me; Rachel. I’ll be joining work from tomorrow.”

“Rachel! How are you?”

She winced. There it was. The familiar twinge of pity. She didn’t want pity.

“I’m fine, i’m fine; I have to go.”

She cut the call and took a deep sigh. She would have to get used to the sympathetic looks once she got back tomorrow. Damn.

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6 PM

She put on her jogging shoes. It was time to go out, get some fresh air.

She was just stepping outside her house when she bumped into Lin. Her best friend. Who looked furious.

“So the boss told me that you were joining from tomorrow.” Lin smacked her on the head with her purse.

“Ow! Hey stop it.” Rachel rubbed her head.

Lin scowled,”I have been worried sick about you…you…you..”

Rachel smiled,” I know…I know…I’m sorry. It has been hard…” She looked away sheepishly.

Lin took her hand and squeezed it. “I know sweetie. I want you to know that you are not alone, all right?.”

Rachel hugged her and felt herself tearing up.

” So I guess I’ll see you tomorrow?” Lin looked at her expectantly.

Rachel nodded,”Yes…Lin..?”

“Yes?”

” Don’t go.”

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10 PM

They were at an old chinese restaurant. Lin was talking animatedly about her new dog.

Rachel smiled. She was so tactful. She knew how to keep her mind off depressing topics. But it was time to talk about it.

” I miss him.” Rachel stated quietly.

” I know girl, I know…I miss him too!”

Rachel stared at her hands,” They say it gets better with time? I guess it does. I am still alive, breathing. But I feel so hollow. Like I’m alive…but I’m dead on the inside.”

Lin squeezed her hand, ” It will get better. And I’m sure Ryan wouldn’t want you to be sad. He’s want you to go on living, like you always did.”

” I know Lin, I’m trying. But its so hard. How often do you find the true love of your life? I don’t know how to go on without him. I just don’t.”

” You have to, Rachel. Someday, you will find happiness again. I know I sound dumb when I say it, but I mean it!”

” I’m so angry at God. I didn’t deserve this. HE didn’t deserve this. He was just 27!”

Lin patted her on her shoulder,” Rachel, everything will be fine. We are all there for you. Trust me. I promise you. Things will be better one day.”

Rachel blew her nose on a tissue and nodded her head.

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12:30 AM

She was lying in her bed, willing herself to sleep. The doorbell rang. She got up, groggy.

” Jack? “

Jack stepped inside and hugged her.

She stiffened and returned the hug awkwardly.

” What are you doing here? “

” I know you will not believe me but I just came to know through Lin…girl, I’m so sorry! I flew down as soon as possible. “

Rachel smiled wryly. ” Jack, you shouldn’t have.”

Jack pushed her towards her room, “You go to sleep. I’ve taken a week off. I’m going to take care of you. Cook, clean. Anything. “

Rachel stared at him.

” Are you serious?”

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26th October 2012

She was at a restaurant with Lin,Jack and a couple of other colleagues.

” We need to talk. Ladies room. Now.” Lin whispered.

” What? Ow…did you pinch me..ok!”

Lin closed the door behind them. ” I know you will freak out but you should know Jack is still in love with you.”

Rachel scowled,” Lin..now’s not the time..”

” No, listen!” Lin interrupted her, ” I know it is too soon. But you should know. Because he will never tell you. He’s a good guy Rach, and you should have ended up with him NOT Ryan”

Rachel sighed, ” What’s your point? “

Lin smiled sadly, ” When you are ready, give him a chance, will you? “

” I can’t have this conversation right now!” Rachel walked out of the room.

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27th October 2012

They were at the airport.

” So you promise you’ll take care? ” Jack looked down at her, his brown eyes making her heart melt.

” Yes, I will! “

He hugged her.

” Jack…” Rachel protested, he was holding her too tight.

He bent down and kissed her on the cheek,” I’m not a cad, you know. But I care. I always have.”

She looked away embarrassed.

” I..”

” Rach…its ok. I’ll wait.” He kissed her on the forehead and walked away.

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May 10, 2013

She had reached his mailbox for the third time.

Jack its me…Rachel. I’m in New York. Let’s catch up for a drink? Call me.

She lay down on her hotel bed and within a minute, she was asleep.

Change. It was happening.

Frozen : Madonna

This has to be one of the most epic videos of all time. And what a song! <3

This is the sole property of Madonna.

[Verse:]

You only see what your eyes want to see
How can life be what you want it to be
You're frozen
When your heart's not open

You're so consumed with how much you get
You waste your time with hate and regret
You're broken
When your heart's not open

[Chorus:]

Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
Mmmmmm, you hold the key

Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken

Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You're frozen
When your heart's not open

[chorus]
[verse]
[chorus, repeat]

If I could melt your heart

B is for beautiful

Who says Mumbai is not beautiful?

Taken at Carter Road, a little before sunset, using the camera on my HTC!

Mirrors – Justin Timberlake

This song is the sole property of Justin Timberlake.

I love the lyrics! :) I think he’s going to win a couple of awards again soon, what a talented guy!

I’d love to sing this to someone, someday.

Well That’s Me!

Yep, a photo, taken in happier times, in a happier place!