She was sitting on a bench in the park. It was 6:30 in the morning.
It was one of those days when she had decided to wake up early. She didn’t know why. There was this burning restlessness inside of her.
October was never a good month for her. It was always turbulent, always full of uncertainties. She always liked to be planned to the T. Almost like a borderline OCD.
But she was learning to relax. Learning to live. Learning to breathe.
Breathe. She took in a deep breath. For once…in a very, very long time she felt free.
She felt free from the self – imposed shackles of her work…from the notions of what others felt she ought to do…from what she felt she was obliged to do. No…for once she was doing what she wanted to do.
And you know what…being able to do what you want to do? That was real freedom.
She had no where to go. No one to love. Love…another elusive thing which haunted her sometime. But she was learning to let go and set her heart free. She knew one day someone who would keep it in a safe place would find it and till then…till then she was learning how to love herself. Learning how to find happiness in the fact of realizing her true potential as an individual.
She was learning to live.
Learning to breathe.
I’m sorry if I don’t love you anymore,
It isn’t as if I didn’t try…
I tried till I could try no more..
I tried till I could cry no more.
I waited for you to acknowledge me everyday,
To say even one tender word to me…
Oh how my heart ached for it…
But you broke it…bit by bit…
You always looked right through me…
Like I was a ghost
Like I didn’t exist …
I felt revulsion in your kiss.
Forgive me if I have moved on,
Too far out of your reach…
And now I wonder why I ever did care..
Perhaps this is how it ends for karma to be fair.
You know,they say that when you want something really badly the universe conspires to make it happen.
Ladyhawk is off to a new start in her life. I will furnish details soon…its not finalized yet but when it is…I will! :)
So the thing is…I needed to make a big decision in my life and well, I needed some help…some signal from the universe to do it and you know what? I got what I wanted. I could make the decision that I needed to.
Guys…I must say, being positive and upbeat all the time is not easy but it is worth it. Try it. You can transform your lives. I am on the path to making something of mine and I hope you will wish me luck!
Hugs and Kisses,
One Last Time,
Let me hold you close…
Close to my heart,
Can’t believe we’ll soon be apart.
One Last Time,
Let me look into your eyes..
And I see that you are sad,
It makes me kind of glad…
It doesn’t have to be goodbye..
I don’t really have to let go..
But I have nothing to hold on to,
And it doesn’t seem you want me to.
Courage dear heart,
Don’t you flounder now…
And when he turns to say goodbye..
Don’t let him see that he made you cry.
There was a point in time when I could relate to this.
I’m in love with this article. As someone in her late twenties I have to deal with the dreadful double D – the dating dilemmas.
Mark Mason wrote this really interesting article which is called Fuck Yes or No. It explains, in crude terms on how you can figure out which relationships are worth pursuing and which aren’t. If you want to date the right sort of people – I suggest you read this very simple article. Its common sense actually.
Pardon the language. And i don’t intend to plagiarize, I’m just re – posting as a fan:
The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” states that when you want to get involved with someone new, in whatever capacity, they must inspire you to say “Fuck Yes” in order for you to proceed with them.
The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” also states that when you want to get involved with someone new, in whatever capacity, THEY must respond with a “Fuck Yes” in order for you to proceed with them.
Ah. It made complete sense to me! And that’s what I promised to myself to follow in all of my relationships (hopefully not too many) to come.
To read the article please click here